KCON here I come!

I’m going to Kcon again this year. I wasn’t going to be a part of that mess until I saw that GOT7 was going to be one of the acts. Yay! That’s happening in August and after that, I’ll be starting school so August is going to be a busy month for me! I haven’t forgotten my idea for a serial however and I intend to start updating twice a month.

New Layout

As you may have noticed, I changed up the layout for something cleaner and simpler. As much as the old one conveyed the fact that this is a writer’s blog, it was just a bit too messy for me. I’m not sure how long I’ll stick to this one but for now, it satisfies my need for something more modern and streamlined.

I’m still working on a serial idea. I had one for a moment but considering the subject matter, it didn’t actually feel like a good serial idea and more of a short story.

A serial…?

I’m considering starting up a serial here just to have something to blog about that isn’t life crap and reviews. I’m supposed to be a WRITER ninja, right? I just need to figure out what I want to write about… and keep it simple because it feels like making things overly complicated is always my downfall. I’ll keep you guys posted and see what I can come up with.

Today’s Drama

Well, today was pretty eventful. I got my blood test results back and I have a vitamin D deficiency. That’s not surprising, given how little I go outside. Apparently I also have to watch my cholesterol and take in a little more potassium. WEIRD, since I hardly eat any meat (and rarely red meat) and I eat a lot of bananas and melons. But, the important part here is that I don’t have any hormonal deficiencies so… there’s no medical reason for why I’m the way I am. Uh-oh.

A few minutes after I made it back home, my sister arrived to pick up my brother. We went out for a little while so she could teach me to drive. We went out to a pretty big and empty parking lot and I basically drove in circles and parked. I did pretty good when it came to parking. I still have a lot to learn when it comes to driving, though. I’m not skilled at multi-tasking so driving is actually pretty stressful for me! I’m sure when I pick up the skills, it’ll be much easier for me, though. I’m actually pretty thrilled and excited about the prospect of getting my own car and being able to go wherever I want whenever I want.

When we got back from the driving test, my sister and I checked out a few more houses out here but nothing really caught my eye. And then I heard the telltale cry of a young kitten. I’d know that sound anywhere since we’ve fostered two litters of kittens here in the past. Sure as hell, there was a small kitten about 5-6 weeks old and she was all alone near the corner of our front yard. Two men in a white work truck jumped into their truck and drove off, which led us to believe the jerks left the kitten there in our yard on purpose!

She was an adorable kitten, though!

Luckily, Jason is pretty good friends with a man out here who works with dogs. Recently, he’s expanded to kittens and since he already had a litter of kittens, he took her. I’m sure the little kitten will be much happier with other kittens. She seemed pretty lonely without her¬†family, poor thing. I’m just glad we found somebody to take her because it’s not that easy to get people to take kittens–even as cute as they are.

I know I haven’t been writing much about, well, writing lately but that’s because I’ve hit a pretty big bump in my life. That’s why I’m learning to drive and I’m signing up for college classes for the summer. Hopefully these things will jumpstart my creativity as well!

Why do I roleplay?

Honestly… I roleplay because I love to write and I know my partner at least will be reading it and that they’ll care what happens next in the story. They’re a part of it, so they’re every bit as invested as I am. When I write alone, I don’t get that same feeling. In fact, I start feeling despair the further I go on by myself that everything I’m writing will forever be left unread and it’s depressing. Like what’s the point?

Most of the things I write aren’t things the people around me in real life care about so I don’t show them what I’m writing or get any input. It’s lonely. Roleplay allows me to do my number one favorite thing: write–and it matters to at least the one person I’m writing with. That’s all that matters and all I ever wanted. Being rich and famous? Not really and that’s why I become less motivated to spit out novels as time goes on.

I still call myself a writer because I usually spend most of my day writing and I get to define myself the same way anybody else does. I write, therefore, I am a writer. I don’t get paid to do it, but that doesn’t make me any less of a writer.

And that’s what I was thinking about today when asked the question: “What makes you RP?”

2015 so far

Ah, the new year has not been kind to me thus far. After a series of toothaches, and a marriage, I’ve finally manned up and gone to the dentist. My first attempt was a step forward but not what I had hoped it would be. Only 5 x-rays were usable and the dentist decided it would be better if I went to another dentist that specialized in sedation dentistry. The place he recommended did not fully cover the costs of my treatment so we had to cancel that appointment and make another on the same day at a place recommended to us by Jason’s cousin.

At this place, I wasn’t really nervous at all. I took my Ativan before I arrived but it didn’t kick in until a bit later. I’ve decided to take it a lot earlier this next time so that as soon as we get in, I can be treated. The treatment this time around? Eek, a root canal. As somebody who has NEVER experienced one but only heard terrible things, I’m understandably nervous. However, we’ve moved forward a lot since the days where the root canal was the most dreaded thing so I am hoping very much that it will be–if not pleasant–a tolerable experience to get through something I really need.

If this experience is a positive one, I know that my dental fears, while not conquered, will be much easier to deal with in the future. We are talking a night and day difference here. I used to sob and shake when I so much as walked through the door to a dentist and even talking about them would break me out in a cold sweat. So far, those negative feelings are beginning to ebb. Beginning. But I don’t think I’ll ever see the day where I’m EXCITED to have dental work done. I’ll just be glad if it doesn’t fill me with a sick sense of dread when it’s so much as brought up.

So tomorrow I will experience my very first root canal. Here’s to hoping that with Ativan and possibly a little help from nitrous oxide, I can make it through the experience intact and feeling positive about dental work in general.

The New Year Is Almost Here

I thought I would share a recent comment I made on Facebook because it’s so true!

It’s been a busy year and some amazing stuff has happened. This is the year my sister got married, my best friend got married, and I got married. This is the year when I went out to my very first concert with my best friend and stayed at the best hotel I’ve ever been to! This is the year that I went on a road trip all the way up northern California, where I got to see where my husband’s family grew up, and I got to take a ferry around the San Francisco bay. This is the year I went to Kcon and got to meet one of my best online friends. This is the year my little nephew Harley was born. This is the year I finally got to see where my best friend moved, where we watched old anime and even went whale watching.

A lot has happened and I’m thankful for every experience, even if I sometimes don’t seem like it at the time. 2014 was a great year to be alive and I can’t wait to see what happens in 2015. I love you guys! See you next year.

It’s very true. A lot has changed this year. I did a lot of things that I never thought I’d be able to. It’s been a strange ride and through some of it, I might have even been a bit of a grouch. Now that I look back on it, though, I’m glad that I’ve had those experiences.

I also forgot one: this is the year I turned 30 years old. That humbles me. When I was young, I thought 30 was so old and that life after 30 would basically be over. That’s not true at all. I’m 30 years old and I still have a lot yet to experience. Let’s just hope most of those new experiences will be positive.

Merry Christmas!

It’s that time of year again: Christmas! It’s been an eventful December for us. My toothache came roaring back and my face swelled up. I had to go to the urgent care clinic out here to get some antibiotics. The timing was awful, since we just bought a thousand gifts only a couple days beforehand.

Oh and the antibiotics! Well, I have a severe choking phobia and so I don’t swallow large pills. The small ones, about Advil sized or smaller, I can take now, through a bit of training. But antibiotics are traditionally pretty large and these ones were no exception. Luckily, the pharmacist said I could open up the capsules and pour the powder into pudding to take them.

One cup of pudding is pretty quick to eat but the bitter taste of those antibiotics. *SHUDDER* It was only eleven days of my life but it was still nasty. Three times a day, I had to choke down pudding sprinkled with drugs. I got through it and I thought I would see a dentist three days from my last dose. Sadly, that was not to be. I won’t be covered by my husband’s insurance until the first of next year so we had to reschedule my appointment for the sixth. Aw…

Now we’re here, Christmas Day! The household is sick with some nasty flu but we’re going to mom’s later tonight for a dinner and some games, along with the usual gift exchanging. It should be a good time and it’s just the day.

Yesterday, my sister and brother were blowing up my phone, so I’m sure they want to see me, too!

Anyway, it’s 3:30 in the morning so I need to get some sleep.

Merry Christmas!

A rant on the fear of old roleplay sites

I suppose there’s no real way to get stubborn people outside their comfort zones. I mean, we did just get three new members on Somnia in the last week, which is pretty amazing after months of nothing. But two of those members are new to RP and were brought in by one of our older members and a long time RPing friend of mine.

Also… People say things like they never want to join older sites but how are they going to feel when their site is five years old and it’s like pulling teeth to get new members? I’ll bet you anything they’ll be saying the same things I am. My members are pretty excited whenever somebody new shows up because it hardly ever happens. They’re definitely not shunning or hazing anybody. In fact, they usually go out of their way to present them with plot ideas.

We all have a huge number of characters, as well, so when there’s a new member, it’s another opportunity to further plots with characters who have been neglected by the rest of the member base. I personally have quite a few characters who aren’t so beloved by the other members and they get ignored. Any time we have a new member, I have new hope that I’ll be able to tell a story with that character. So they aren’t shut out of stories, they in fact become integral to brand new ones, even if the characters they are playing with are old. I have a character who’s been on the site since it opened who’s got a whopping NOTHING going on because the two members I plotted him with before disappeared.

I guess shit can happen on any site but it’s honestly pretty hurtful to keep hearing it over and over again, everywhere I go. I hear the same old excuses. “I feel like an outsider. Everybody already knows each other and I don’t know them.” Like it’s any different on a new site? Chances are you don’t know anybody there, either but somehow it’s better because the site itself doesn’t have a lot of history? I dunno. I’m just sick of it.

People like that don’t even try my site, they just base their experiences off other sites, which is like saying you don’t want to eat at Chili’s because your experience at Applebee’s was bad. Sure, they’re both restaurants but the owner, staff, and menu are completely different. The experience won’t necessarily be the same. It’s a kid refusing to eat anything green without ever tasting it. Meh.

I’m sick of it all. The excuses not to try something new just because there are other people experiencing the setting before you did. I’m sick of how self-centered people are. They cry clique the second a subject comes up that they don’t understand because what? They expect the previous members to act distantly with one another? Act like they don’t know one another? Not every conversation is going to be about YOU, I’m sorry to say and they won’t always be on subjects you can chime in about. That can and will happen on any site, not just old ones.

Anyway, I had to get that off my chest somewhere… It’s annoying trying to get people to try a site that is not only older but also on a software people aren’t used to and sometimes, I just need to rant about it.